To start off with, Mr.D has had some unpleasant experiences in his past relationships...Let's briefly talk about it.
One lonely midnight, Mr.D was still surfing net, even though he had nothing to do online. He was trying to find something to do since he didn't wanna sleep just yet, but he couldn't find anything to do. All of a sudden, there was a fella adding Mr.D as a friend on msn, and of course Mr.D accepted the add. He approached Mr.D with two words "Ding Dong", as a sign of greeting, they soon clicked on each other, although they hadn't met each other personally yet. The conversation continued to the morning light and ended soon after the sun rose. It continued for the next few days, so they had decided to arrange a meet up on 26th December 2007. After the meet, the feelings got stronger, the chemistry between them started invading their bodies. And soon, they embarked on the journey we people used to call "relationship".
Sad to say, they only managed to walk on the road together for a total of 8 months, and the journey could never be completed and just ended with lots of regrets.
Mr.D started falling in love so deeply, claiming that he couldn't live without Mr.E. The longer Mr.D was with Mr.E, the more he loved Mr.E. Maybe it was because of the incompatibility of both their personalities, given that how much they loved each other, they still couldn't overcome the barrier. Mr.E and Mr.D had total distinguishable traits and attitudes, and Mr. E always blamed on Age Gap which Mr.D would never agree. But one thing could never be proven wrong, they both were stubborn. They had arguments very often that it had almost become their daily activities. Just because they loved each other too much, they couldn't let go of each other, broke up, made up, and broke up and made up again, never seemed to have a conclusion. And every time they argued, Mr.E would start avoiding from talking over to solve the problems, and this had made Mr.D very mad at it.
I don't know what Mr.E had done to save this relationship, but I was sure that Mr.D had had a 180 degree change, from a person who claimed that he must always meet up with the one he loved,if possible, everyday to someone who could bear to just see his lover once in a week, or even longer. From a person who would always care about what his lover did to someone who couldn't bother to care much any longer. Trying to put up in any way he could just to avoid quarrels, at a certain point that he no longer had the energy to deal with it.
During the 8 months, there were really some good guys who appeared in most of Mr.D's sorrow nights, comforting him, accompanying him thru-out the nights he quarreled with Mr.E. Some even tried tackling Mr.D and making him theirs. But none of the attempts succeeded, because Mr.D still loved Mr.E very much that he could never accept someone else.
One day, something terrible really happened. And Mr.E's never-gonna-admit-wrong-attitudes never changed. Pushing all the blames towards Mr.D, Mr.D didn't care much though, but this time he really couldn't endure any longer. He finally proposed a break-up to Mr.E as he felt there was no mutual trust between them. The relationship was lacking of something crucial, or that we call "Trust". It would be so pointless and meaningless to continue walking with someone who would never trust you enough and yet placing all the blames on you when things went wrong. Very surprisingly, Mr.E said "OK", and never even said a word to hold Mr.D back.
Mr.D was still waiting for Mr.E, hoping that Mr.E would do something to retrieve the relationship. He was sure that he would accept Mr.E if Mr.E would wanna save this relationship. Yet, he still put all the blame on Mr. D, never even showed intentions of saving the relationships. "Cuz you wanted it!", Mr.E said, still the same old him, pushing the responsibility to others and assuming he was always right. He even furthered with "You can still be with me, if you want to", like Mr.D should be begging with his knees on the floor to ask for a make-up or reconciliation. From that moment onwards, Mr.D swore to himself "I am sure that I made a right choice to be your friend"
One thing Mr.D still doesn't understand is why do people only learn how to treasure things or people around him after he has lost them?Wouldn't it be too late? Mr.D and Mr.E still were friends, and that day Mr.D visited Mr.E, wanting the drama series, and suddenly Mr.E hugged him, initiating for sex. Mr.D, of course, pushed Mr.E away. It was all too late for Mr.E, as there was someone else in Mr.D's heart. Only if Mr.E held Mr.D back that day, they would still be together then.....Only IF...
Anyhow, Mr.D would never deny that there did exist happy moments during the 8 months, and he thanked Mr.E for everything he had within those 8 months. He never hesitated to say that Mr.E was someone whom he loved so much, and that Mr.E would always be in his heart that nobody could ever replace.
Pen off,
Mr.D
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
Chapter 1 - Starts with...
Are things always fated?
Are lives always fated?
Is everything in the future already fated?
Before officially broke up with Mr.E, there came a guy, named Mr.R, 21 years old, UTAR student, approaching Mr.D through some online dating websites. He sent Mr.D an email, and here's the contents of the email.
Mr.R: I'm not sure whether my eyes are fooling me into believing that I've seen u somewhere before and how u looked familiar to me...anyway...Rxxx here.hear from u soon
Mr.D: Well, I dont think i've met or seen you somewhere, or I forgotten...not really sure, but it should be a no that we never met,from what i've remembered...Anyway,Sxx Wxx here...Kind regards,Dxxxx
...
What a "conventional" way of approaching people!Anyway, I would say it was a success since Mr.D did respond to all of Mr.R's emails and soon Mr.R gave his msn address to Mr.D, and undoubtedly, Mr.D added to his msn list.
On 8.7.2008, a month after the add, Mr.R finally came online. As usual, a common way of starting conversation.
Mr.D: You are?
Mr.R: Someone who finds you cute and very good looking.
Mr.D: Huh?
... and the conversation continued.
It's such a cheesy and corny way to tackle people, isn't it? Yet, another success, as Mr.R was able to continue the conversation. At the moment, Mr.D was still struggling with the relationship with Mr.E, so he didn't think too much about it. But one thing for sure, they clicked on each other and the feelings just got stronger and stronger with the never-ending conversation between them...
Everything starts right now and right here, with the heart of passion or the intentions of getting to know each other more, or the wants and needs of switching to a new environment or what?
And the story of Mr.R & Mr.D starts with...
Pen off,
Mr.D
Are lives always fated?
Is everything in the future already fated?
Before officially broke up with Mr.E, there came a guy, named Mr.R, 21 years old, UTAR student, approaching Mr.D through some online dating websites. He sent Mr.D an email, and here's the contents of the email.
Mr.R: I'm not sure whether my eyes are fooling me into believing that I've seen u somewhere before and how u looked familiar to me...anyway...Rxxx here.hear from u soon
Mr.D: Well, I dont think i've met or seen you somewhere, or I forgotten...not really sure, but it should be a no that we never met,from what i've remembered...Anyway,Sxx Wxx here...Kind regards,Dxxxx
...
What a "conventional" way of approaching people!Anyway, I would say it was a success since Mr.D did respond to all of Mr.R's emails and soon Mr.R gave his msn address to Mr.D, and undoubtedly, Mr.D added to his msn list.
On 8.7.2008, a month after the add, Mr.R finally came online. As usual, a common way of starting conversation.
Mr.D: You are?
Mr.R: Someone who finds you cute and very good looking.
Mr.D: Huh?
... and the conversation continued.
It's such a cheesy and corny way to tackle people, isn't it? Yet, another success, as Mr.R was able to continue the conversation. At the moment, Mr.D was still struggling with the relationship with Mr.E, so he didn't think too much about it. But one thing for sure, they clicked on each other and the feelings just got stronger and stronger with the never-ending conversation between them...
Everything starts right now and right here, with the heart of passion or the intentions of getting to know each other more, or the wants and needs of switching to a new environment or what?
And the story of Mr.R & Mr.D starts with...
Pen off,
Mr.D
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Chapter 2 - Fated?
During the conversation, it was revealed that both Mr.D and Mr.R were attached, of course, to different persons, it was just another arrangement of Fate to Mr.D and same went for Mr.R. They started discussing their relationships, about the goods and the bads, no hiding.
Mr.R: Attached for 4 years already
Mr.D: Wah, damn long wei
Mr.D: Geng!
Mr.R: And problem starts
Mr.D: Recently or?
Mr.R: For almost a year
Mr.D: What happened? Communication problem?
Mr.R: Don't know lo, demanding lo?
Mr.R: How about you?
...
Mr.D: But problems never end
Mr.D: Communication problem
Mr.D: Both also stubborn, and that's the root cause
Mr.R: Same like mine lo
... and the conversation continued.
It was the first time Mr.D ever requested someone to cam online, and maybe to Mr.R, it was a pleasure to do so. Mr.D was so sure that he could never go wrong. To be frank, right after he had seen Mr.R through cam, he saw something in Mr.R, it could be love?could be an affection?or just merely an attraction. Mr.D always liked someone who was equipped with a nerdy look, but not a typical nerd, just the look. Maybe Mr.R got the looks that he defined as "NERDY"?
Few houses away, lived the relative of Mr.D, and he knew that they had a web-cam at home, so he decided to borrow from them, just to cam with Mr.R. To Mr.R, there was nothing could ever be much luckier than having the opportunity to see Mr.D through cam, and not just pictures that he kept in his mind or through some network connections like friendster and so on. Mr.R had the pleasure, and so did Mr.D
Even knowing each other were being attached, they still took the risk to keep in touch with each other through anything they could, so long they could reach each other. Mr.D was very good at hiding secrets, his boyfriend didn't know Mr.R's existence at all, everything was being "operated" underground. On the other hand, rather to say Mr.R was weak at keeping the secrets from being revealed, I would say he didn't even have the intention of hiding it from his boyfriend, Mr.B at all. Thus, Mr.B had known about Mr.D so long ago, and inside his heart, all he ever had for Mr.D was jealousy and anger or even hatred, whereas anger, disappointment and hatred with love inside still for Mr.R.
Mr.D was having a hard time burning midnight oil for his exam from 11 to 16 in August 2008, although Mr.R couldn't be there for Mr.D, at least web-cam did help a little, and Mr.D received all the warm supports and care given by Mr.R. Mr.D had a two days break on 14-15 August before the last paper, so they had arranged a meet up on 14th August.
A conversation dated back to 7.8.2008
Mr.D: I won't limit myself anymore (As in know more guys rather than sticking himself only to his current boyfriend)
Mr.D: But I won't go too far though...close friendship is possible but beyond that, no
Mr.R: You really have your own stand of your principle...
Mr.R: And I admire you for that
Mr.D: For me, kissing hugging is ok, not more than that
...
On 14th August 2008, as planned, Mr.D picked Mr.R up at the nearest LRT station, and then soon they headed to Mr.D's home.
To be continued...
Mr.R: Attached for 4 years already
Mr.D: Wah, damn long wei
Mr.D: Geng!
Mr.R: And problem starts
Mr.D: Recently or?
Mr.R: For almost a year
Mr.D: What happened? Communication problem?
Mr.R: Don't know lo, demanding lo?
Mr.R: How about you?
...
Mr.D: But problems never end
Mr.D: Communication problem
Mr.D: Both also stubborn, and that's the root cause
Mr.R: Same like mine lo
... and the conversation continued.
It was the first time Mr.D ever requested someone to cam online, and maybe to Mr.R, it was a pleasure to do so. Mr.D was so sure that he could never go wrong. To be frank, right after he had seen Mr.R through cam, he saw something in Mr.R, it could be love?could be an affection?or just merely an attraction. Mr.D always liked someone who was equipped with a nerdy look, but not a typical nerd, just the look. Maybe Mr.R got the looks that he defined as "NERDY"?
Few houses away, lived the relative of Mr.D, and he knew that they had a web-cam at home, so he decided to borrow from them, just to cam with Mr.R. To Mr.R, there was nothing could ever be much luckier than having the opportunity to see Mr.D through cam, and not just pictures that he kept in his mind or through some network connections like friendster and so on. Mr.R had the pleasure, and so did Mr.D
Even knowing each other were being attached, they still took the risk to keep in touch with each other through anything they could, so long they could reach each other. Mr.D was very good at hiding secrets, his boyfriend didn't know Mr.R's existence at all, everything was being "operated" underground. On the other hand, rather to say Mr.R was weak at keeping the secrets from being revealed, I would say he didn't even have the intention of hiding it from his boyfriend, Mr.B at all. Thus, Mr.B had known about Mr.D so long ago, and inside his heart, all he ever had for Mr.D was jealousy and anger or even hatred, whereas anger, disappointment and hatred with love inside still for Mr.R.
Mr.D was having a hard time burning midnight oil for his exam from 11 to 16 in August 2008, although Mr.R couldn't be there for Mr.D, at least web-cam did help a little, and Mr.D received all the warm supports and care given by Mr.R. Mr.D had a two days break on 14-15 August before the last paper, so they had arranged a meet up on 14th August.
A conversation dated back to 7.8.2008
Mr.D: I won't limit myself anymore (As in know more guys rather than sticking himself only to his current boyfriend)
Mr.D: But I won't go too far though...close friendship is possible but beyond that, no
Mr.R: You really have your own stand of your principle...
Mr.R: And I admire you for that
Mr.D: For me, kissing hugging is ok, not more than that
...
On 14th August 2008, as planned, Mr.D picked Mr.R up at the nearest LRT station, and then soon they headed to Mr.D's home.
To be continued...
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Chapter 2i - Fated?
It was quite late when Mr.D picked Mr.R up at the LRT station, near to evening. And when Mr.R reached Mr.D's house. Mr.D showed him around, except his room,
Mr.D: My room damn messy la, don't go in la
Mr.R: It doesn't bother me though
So, as Mr.R insisted, Mr.D led Mr.R to his room
Mr.R: Nah, it's not that messy also, better than mine!
Mr.D: Haha
Normally, Mr.D's laptop will be in his room all the times, 24/7 (24 hours and 7 days), but he has a habit, whenever he is rushing assignments or studying, he would surely move the laptop outside his room and put it on the dining table. It was an examination week, so obviously Mr.D's laptop would all the times be on the dining table.
Maybe, Maybe, something would have happened if the laptop were in the room. However, it wasn't and Mr.D's parents were out there. So, basically, Mr.R just accompanied Mr.D doing revision. Well, Mr.D ain't someone who could keep quiet, grabbing every little single chance to talk whenever he could, let alone that he now had someone in front of him to talk to. He barely could concentrate on the revision, and he spent most of the times talking to Mr.R even though he needed to revise for the exam.
Soon, the phone rang, and Mr.D picked up, it was his grandma, asking him to go over her place for a quick dinner. Well, Mr.D and his grandma were very close, so he immediately said "Ok!" to his grandma without concerning Mr.R's existence at all. However, Mr.R was an easy-going person, and he had no objections at all when Mr.D asked him to follow along since he hadn't had his dinner yet.
After the dinner, on the way home, it was so obvious that Mr.R wanted to move his hand and grab Mr.D's hands, but he didn't do it. Maybe, he was afraid of being pushed away by Mr.D or he just respected Mr.D but he didn't know Mr.D was waiting for that moment to come. When they reached home, Mr.D's parents were out, still limiting himself to an extent which he considered as safe and respectful to Mr.D, he only did a little comfortable and relaxing massage for Mr.D as Mr.D was overstressed with the examinations. And Mr.D was so enjoying that he closed his eyes and he got quiet, quietly feel the energy and the flow of Mr.R's massaging skills.
Expectedly, they soon got into the room, but yet the line hadn't been crossed. Mr.D still held tight to his principle, he just hugged Mr.R, even though he wished to cross the line. They two spent quite a long time on hugging each other, they never wanted to let go of each other as if it was so inseparable like a tied knot. Time flew, very fast, it was almost 12am, and Mr.R needed to go to his auntie's house and he supposed to follow his auntie back to hometown on the following day. Although feeling sad that Mr.R would leave soon, Mr.D held back his emotions, showing a very strong and firm image like "It's not a big deal at all!". Deep inside Mr.D's heart, there was a kind of sorrow that just ain't describable or conveyable as no adjectives ain't enough to say it all. But what about Mr.R? Did he feel the same way? or it was just a normal goodbye for him?
Time started to pass but their affections for each other never disappeared. On 18th August 2008, Mr.R finally confessed to Mr.D that "I've really fallen in love with you". Mr.D wanted to say so much, wanted to say "I feel the same way too", but he wasn't brave enough, just ain't!He still wanted to hold tight onto his beliefs, onto his so-called principles. Before confession, Mr.D was told that Mr.B saw all the smses between Mr.D and Mr.R, and the blood just rushed to his head, and he finally couldn't take it anymore, he wanted to break up with Mr.R.
Mr.R: He did ask me...Whether I still love him or not
Mr.R: I paused for a while before answering...And yes I do, I still love him...
Mr.R: But now, not all my love can go into him...If it was before, I'd answer him straightaway..
...
Mr.R: I've really fallen in love with you...
Mr.R: I just hope you won't retreat yourself from my life, that's all I ask of you
Mr.D: Problem is, how about you?Is that fair to you?
Mr.R: I don't mind...
Just like this, they continued their unclear, ambiguous, uncertain, dubious or confusing relationship...
Is he fated to fall in love with Mr.R?
Is he one of the arrangement of fate for Mr.D?
Is fate being generous or cruel?
Is it all about being fated?
Deep inside Mr.D's mind, those questions never failed to pop out whenever Mr.D was free, Mr.D tried so hard to find an answer for each question but to no avail. No one knows, and no one will ever know...Only time knows what the fate is planning, and time will tell, it will...
End of chapter 2 - Fated?
Pen off,
Mr.D
Mr.D: My room damn messy la, don't go in la
Mr.R: It doesn't bother me though
So, as Mr.R insisted, Mr.D led Mr.R to his room
Mr.R: Nah, it's not that messy also, better than mine!
Mr.D: Haha
Normally, Mr.D's laptop will be in his room all the times, 24/7 (24 hours and 7 days), but he has a habit, whenever he is rushing assignments or studying, he would surely move the laptop outside his room and put it on the dining table. It was an examination week, so obviously Mr.D's laptop would all the times be on the dining table.
Maybe, Maybe, something would have happened if the laptop were in the room. However, it wasn't and Mr.D's parents were out there. So, basically, Mr.R just accompanied Mr.D doing revision. Well, Mr.D ain't someone who could keep quiet, grabbing every little single chance to talk whenever he could, let alone that he now had someone in front of him to talk to. He barely could concentrate on the revision, and he spent most of the times talking to Mr.R even though he needed to revise for the exam.
Soon, the phone rang, and Mr.D picked up, it was his grandma, asking him to go over her place for a quick dinner. Well, Mr.D and his grandma were very close, so he immediately said "Ok!" to his grandma without concerning Mr.R's existence at all. However, Mr.R was an easy-going person, and he had no objections at all when Mr.D asked him to follow along since he hadn't had his dinner yet.
After the dinner, on the way home, it was so obvious that Mr.R wanted to move his hand and grab Mr.D's hands, but he didn't do it. Maybe, he was afraid of being pushed away by Mr.D or he just respected Mr.D but he didn't know Mr.D was waiting for that moment to come. When they reached home, Mr.D's parents were out, still limiting himself to an extent which he considered as safe and respectful to Mr.D, he only did a little comfortable and relaxing massage for Mr.D as Mr.D was overstressed with the examinations. And Mr.D was so enjoying that he closed his eyes and he got quiet, quietly feel the energy and the flow of Mr.R's massaging skills.
Expectedly, they soon got into the room, but yet the line hadn't been crossed. Mr.D still held tight to his principle, he just hugged Mr.R, even though he wished to cross the line. They two spent quite a long time on hugging each other, they never wanted to let go of each other as if it was so inseparable like a tied knot. Time flew, very fast, it was almost 12am, and Mr.R needed to go to his auntie's house and he supposed to follow his auntie back to hometown on the following day. Although feeling sad that Mr.R would leave soon, Mr.D held back his emotions, showing a very strong and firm image like "It's not a big deal at all!". Deep inside Mr.D's heart, there was a kind of sorrow that just ain't describable or conveyable as no adjectives ain't enough to say it all. But what about Mr.R? Did he feel the same way? or it was just a normal goodbye for him?
Time started to pass but their affections for each other never disappeared. On 18th August 2008, Mr.R finally confessed to Mr.D that "I've really fallen in love with you". Mr.D wanted to say so much, wanted to say "I feel the same way too", but he wasn't brave enough, just ain't!He still wanted to hold tight onto his beliefs, onto his so-called principles. Before confession, Mr.D was told that Mr.B saw all the smses between Mr.D and Mr.R, and the blood just rushed to his head, and he finally couldn't take it anymore, he wanted to break up with Mr.R.
Mr.R: He did ask me...Whether I still love him or not
Mr.R: I paused for a while before answering...And yes I do, I still love him...
Mr.R: But now, not all my love can go into him...If it was before, I'd answer him straightaway..
...
Mr.R: I've really fallen in love with you...
Mr.R: I just hope you won't retreat yourself from my life, that's all I ask of you
Mr.D: Problem is, how about you?Is that fair to you?
Mr.R: I don't mind...
Just like this, they continued their unclear, ambiguous, uncertain, dubious or confusing relationship...
Is he fated to fall in love with Mr.R?
Is he one of the arrangement of fate for Mr.D?
Is fate being generous or cruel?
Is it all about being fated?
Deep inside Mr.D's mind, those questions never failed to pop out whenever Mr.D was free, Mr.D tried so hard to find an answer for each question but to no avail. No one knows, and no one will ever know...Only time knows what the fate is planning, and time will tell, it will...
End of chapter 2 - Fated?
Pen off,
Mr.D
Friday, October 3, 2008
Chapter 3 - A sign of ... ?
One day, Mr.D was having a conversation with Mr.R on msn, and by chance, he was told that Mr.R knew how to cook!And Mr.D asked Mr.R, if he can taste the food prepared by Mr.R. And Mr.R, just said "Well, I would cook for you if you want me to". Mr.D was more than just happy to have heard that, and all he ever thought in his mind was not the food, but the chance of seeing Mr.R again. Mr.D requested for a meal prepared by Mr.R after his stressful examination period, but date wasn't even confirmed at all..
On 19th, Mr.D called Mr.R
Mr.D: Hey, tomorrow I plan to visit my relative in Wangsa Maju there le, and probably I would go find you as well, so are you gon cook for me tomorrow?
Mr.R: Huh?Not sure wo..Don't know if Bxxxx will be out or not tomorrow..
Mr.D: Ohh, means if Bxxxx there, you ain't gon cook for me la?Then nevermind la...
Mr.R: Wei, there's always next time de ma...right?
Mr.D: Well, I won't purposely go so far just for food lo..Tomorrow only, if not, I don't know how long would it take for the "next time" to come?
Mr.R: Well, I guess I just gotta say yes, should I not?
Mr.D: Hehe, you know it...See you tomorrow then..
On 20th, after preparing himself the best, Mr.D got in his Rav4, heading to Taman Melati in the afternoon. Basically, Mr.D only knew the way to Wangsa Maju, he did't know no place called "Taman Melati" although he knew it was near to Wangsa Maju. He was supposed to meet Mr.R at Jusco, but then Mr.R asked if Mr.D could just straightaway go to Taman Melati. Mr.D tried to, but ain't got no luck, he had a poor sense of direction, expected, and he almost got lost. He got fed up, he called up Mr.R and asked Mr.R to come to the LRT station nearby the Jusco. However, while Mr.R was in a cab, heading towards the LRT, Mr.D was still trying his best to find a way out to Taman Melati. And then, he realized that he wasn't at the place that Mr.R described and he thought he was on the right place, so he tried to call Mr.R but something was just wrong with the reception, couldn't call out. He started to get worried, so he decided to just wait nearby the LRT station where Mr.R would surely pass by before reaching the LRT station. He looked at every passing cabs, trying to see if it was Mr.R inside the cab, but he ain't that lucky as many cabs passed by but he couldn't see any one of them with Mr.R inside. Finally, there was a cab with Mr.R inside, and Mr.D quickly pulled out his cell phone again, trying to inform Mr.R in case Mr.R didn't notice his car. But, suddenly the cab stopped aside, and Mr.R was coming out from the cab, and then running towards the Blue Rav4. "He saw it, he noticed it!", shouted Mr.D deep inside his heart.
First thing Mr.D said when he let Mr.R in into his car.
Mr.D: Why can't call you one?
Mr.R: I can't call you too?
Mr.D: Err, I think my phone got problem, let me on again first.
Well, phone was restarted, and smses were popping up, it was obvious that it was the phone of Mr.D playing a game with him. And they just laughed, after that, they were heading to Carrefour nearby to purchase some ingredients for the cook later, they had a great time shopping in Carrefour.
When they reached home, Mr.R started arranging all the ingredients and preparing himself to cook. At the mean time, Mr.D was a little bit too exhausted, due to the long-day activities, from 8am till then, never had the chance to rest a bit. Mr.R stayed lying in the sofa, but he couldn't sleep. When Mr.R was cooking, Mr.D got up and went towards the kitchen. He suddenly hugged Mr.R! Besides feeling surprised as he was a little speechless and he stopped a while, hands not moving, it was all Mr.R ever hoped and wanted from Mr.D. The meals were ready in a 40 minutes time, and they fed each other, and it was sweet in both the hearts of two who had great affections to each other.
Suddenly, a missed call was shown on the screen of Mr.R's phone, and it was Mr.B and as well a sms from Mr.B asking Mr.R to go into the room.
Suddenly, Mr.D recalled the short conversation he had in the lift with Mr.R before entering the house. He was told a little about how Mr.B gon behave later.
Mr.R: He ain't gon see you at all because he doesn't want to, and I ain't allowed to bring you into the room plus he would all the time lock himself up in the room, never gon come out so long you are here"
Well, Mr.D had questions in his mind, thinking why would Mr.B wanna do something like this, such a childish act, but he just nodded his head to Mr.R, saying "Ohh, ok..."
As he entered the room, it was so loud that Mr.D could hear only TWO words being screamed out in an angry tone, from the room inside by Mr.B, "Don't want!". Mr.D thought that something must have happened! Mr.B was throwing tantrum at Mr.R as he hadn't had his dinner yet, plus he ain't even up for toilet at all since Mr.D was there. It was quite late somehow, around 11.30pm, and Mr.D was supposed to visit his relative and he said to Mr.R that he gotta leave soon. The main reason wasn't that at all chance, it was just because Mr.D didn't wanna get Mr.R into a circumstance where Mr.R would be put on a fence in between two houses. Withdrawing would be the best idea to avoid all that, Mr.D thought.
Another day, 23rd August 2o08. Mr.R told Mr.D that he was going to the California Gym in Mid Valley, which was quite near to Mr.D's house. Mr.D asked Mr.R if they could meet today, and if Mr.R would go to his house. Mr.R told Mr.D that Mr.B would be following him to gym as well, so he believed that it wasn't convenient to meet Mr.D. Disappointed, but somehow Mr.D didn't know what else to say to Mr.R besides "Ohh, like that ah, then nevermind la" with a sad tone.
Just at all of a sudden, Mr.R sent a text to Mr.D, saying "Hey, I will be going to your house later, where will it be the most convenient place for you to pick me up?". With lots of question marks in his head, as well as surprises and shocks, he quickly called Mr.R up asking why suddenly Mr.R could go to his house? Mr.R replied that "He see me like seeing a dead or a zombie now, then ma let me go over your place lo". Without a hesitation, Mr.D said "Ya, Bangsar would be good, I would go out now!"
This was the first time when Mr.D and Mr.R kissed each other, Mr.D seemed to have loosened the "laws" he had set for himself. And they had a long chat and sweet moments but time really flew, that Mr.R gotta leave for home very soon. Not wanting to say goodbye, but they had to...
After all those that had happened, what was in both the minds of Mr.R and Mr.D? Were they starting to swing their positions, straying away from their original tracks and looking for a new environment? Or were they just gonna leave it that way, continuing an "unrevealed" or "underground" relationship like this?What would happen to both of them, and as well as Mr.B and Mr.E? Was it gonna be a disaster or a beautiful future awaiting them?
Pen off,
Mr.D
On 19th, Mr.D called Mr.R
Mr.D: Hey, tomorrow I plan to visit my relative in Wangsa Maju there le, and probably I would go find you as well, so are you gon cook for me tomorrow?
Mr.R: Huh?Not sure wo..Don't know if Bxxxx will be out or not tomorrow..
Mr.D: Ohh, means if Bxxxx there, you ain't gon cook for me la?Then nevermind la...
Mr.R: Wei, there's always next time de ma...right?
Mr.D: Well, I won't purposely go so far just for food lo..Tomorrow only, if not, I don't know how long would it take for the "next time" to come?
Mr.R: Well, I guess I just gotta say yes, should I not?
Mr.D: Hehe, you know it...See you tomorrow then..
On 20th, after preparing himself the best, Mr.D got in his Rav4, heading to Taman Melati in the afternoon. Basically, Mr.D only knew the way to Wangsa Maju, he did't know no place called "Taman Melati" although he knew it was near to Wangsa Maju. He was supposed to meet Mr.R at Jusco, but then Mr.R asked if Mr.D could just straightaway go to Taman Melati. Mr.D tried to, but ain't got no luck, he had a poor sense of direction, expected, and he almost got lost. He got fed up, he called up Mr.R and asked Mr.R to come to the LRT station nearby the Jusco. However, while Mr.R was in a cab, heading towards the LRT, Mr.D was still trying his best to find a way out to Taman Melati. And then, he realized that he wasn't at the place that Mr.R described and he thought he was on the right place, so he tried to call Mr.R but something was just wrong with the reception, couldn't call out. He started to get worried, so he decided to just wait nearby the LRT station where Mr.R would surely pass by before reaching the LRT station. He looked at every passing cabs, trying to see if it was Mr.R inside the cab, but he ain't that lucky as many cabs passed by but he couldn't see any one of them with Mr.R inside. Finally, there was a cab with Mr.R inside, and Mr.D quickly pulled out his cell phone again, trying to inform Mr.R in case Mr.R didn't notice his car. But, suddenly the cab stopped aside, and Mr.R was coming out from the cab, and then running towards the Blue Rav4. "He saw it, he noticed it!", shouted Mr.D deep inside his heart.
First thing Mr.D said when he let Mr.R in into his car.
Mr.D: Why can't call you one?
Mr.R: I can't call you too?
Mr.D: Err, I think my phone got problem, let me on again first.
Well, phone was restarted, and smses were popping up, it was obvious that it was the phone of Mr.D playing a game with him. And they just laughed, after that, they were heading to Carrefour nearby to purchase some ingredients for the cook later, they had a great time shopping in Carrefour.
When they reached home, Mr.R started arranging all the ingredients and preparing himself to cook. At the mean time, Mr.D was a little bit too exhausted, due to the long-day activities, from 8am till then, never had the chance to rest a bit. Mr.R stayed lying in the sofa, but he couldn't sleep. When Mr.R was cooking, Mr.D got up and went towards the kitchen. He suddenly hugged Mr.R! Besides feeling surprised as he was a little speechless and he stopped a while, hands not moving, it was all Mr.R ever hoped and wanted from Mr.D. The meals were ready in a 40 minutes time, and they fed each other, and it was sweet in both the hearts of two who had great affections to each other.
Suddenly, a missed call was shown on the screen of Mr.R's phone, and it was Mr.B and as well a sms from Mr.B asking Mr.R to go into the room.
Suddenly, Mr.D recalled the short conversation he had in the lift with Mr.R before entering the house. He was told a little about how Mr.B gon behave later.
Mr.R: He ain't gon see you at all because he doesn't want to, and I ain't allowed to bring you into the room plus he would all the time lock himself up in the room, never gon come out so long you are here"
Well, Mr.D had questions in his mind, thinking why would Mr.B wanna do something like this, such a childish act, but he just nodded his head to Mr.R, saying "Ohh, ok..."
As he entered the room, it was so loud that Mr.D could hear only TWO words being screamed out in an angry tone, from the room inside by Mr.B, "Don't want!". Mr.D thought that something must have happened! Mr.B was throwing tantrum at Mr.R as he hadn't had his dinner yet, plus he ain't even up for toilet at all since Mr.D was there. It was quite late somehow, around 11.30pm, and Mr.D was supposed to visit his relative and he said to Mr.R that he gotta leave soon. The main reason wasn't that at all chance, it was just because Mr.D didn't wanna get Mr.R into a circumstance where Mr.R would be put on a fence in between two houses. Withdrawing would be the best idea to avoid all that, Mr.D thought.
Another day, 23rd August 2o08. Mr.R told Mr.D that he was going to the California Gym in Mid Valley, which was quite near to Mr.D's house. Mr.D asked Mr.R if they could meet today, and if Mr.R would go to his house. Mr.R told Mr.D that Mr.B would be following him to gym as well, so he believed that it wasn't convenient to meet Mr.D. Disappointed, but somehow Mr.D didn't know what else to say to Mr.R besides "Ohh, like that ah, then nevermind la" with a sad tone.
Just at all of a sudden, Mr.R sent a text to Mr.D, saying "Hey, I will be going to your house later, where will it be the most convenient place for you to pick me up?". With lots of question marks in his head, as well as surprises and shocks, he quickly called Mr.R up asking why suddenly Mr.R could go to his house? Mr.R replied that "He see me like seeing a dead or a zombie now, then ma let me go over your place lo". Without a hesitation, Mr.D said "Ya, Bangsar would be good, I would go out now!"
This was the first time when Mr.D and Mr.R kissed each other, Mr.D seemed to have loosened the "laws" he had set for himself. And they had a long chat and sweet moments but time really flew, that Mr.R gotta leave for home very soon. Not wanting to say goodbye, but they had to...
After all those that had happened, what was in both the minds of Mr.R and Mr.D? Were they starting to swing their positions, straying away from their original tracks and looking for a new environment? Or were they just gonna leave it that way, continuing an "unrevealed" or "underground" relationship like this?What would happen to both of them, and as well as Mr.B and Mr.E? Was it gonna be a disaster or a beautiful future awaiting them?
Pen off,
Mr.D
Chapter 4 - Official Break-up?
25th August 2008, a day that Mr.D would never forget for the rest of his life. An incident that Mr.D had never expected its arrival, but there was nothing that could be done besides accepting the merciless truth which tore apart the heart of someone who put everything he could in it to make the relationship blossom. Like a glass, dropped on the floor, broken into pieces, scattered all over the floor, so loudly that could actually just awaken everyone who was sleeping so soundly in the middle of the night. There was not any exception for Mr.D either, his heart was broken into pieces aloud, only difference was this time only Mr.D could hear the breaking sounds, but the others heard nothing. Mr.D almost collapsed, he couldn't believe this was real...He broke up with Mr.E!
The question was, why did it happen at all of a sudden, and how? Was it because of Mr.R that Mr.D decided to end the relationship with Mr.E? Or was there another story behind the scenes that was yet to be revealed?
It was 12am, 25th August 2008. Mr.D and Mr.E had some conversations on msn.
Mr.E: You want tea?
Mr.D: Ok, you drive?
Mr.E: How about make it tomorrow?
Mr.D: ..........
Mr.D: I'm dressed, then only you say
Mr.E: Lazy drive le
Mr.D: I can drive to your house there la
Mr.E: Then ok, not too long lo, because late already
Mr.E: How about go for breakfast tomorrow? =)
Mr.D: Up to you!
So, they both agreed to have a breakfast at 9am. Mr.D knew Mr.E was tired after working, although dealt to meet at 9am, he actually gave Mr.E extra 1 hour to sleep. Reaching there at 10am, he gave Mr.E a call
Mr.D: Hello, I reached already.
Mr.E: Ohh, ok. Gimme 5 minutes, I brush teeth and I'll come down, can?
Mr.D: Well, sure.
Mr.E came down with blur looks, like a somnambulist, who walked or did activities in his or her sleep, subconsciously, ain't knowing that he or she was doing it!Except for some distinguishable traits, his eyes weren't fully closed, he was at least 40% awake, knowing exactly that he was heading towards Mr.D's car, although the remainder might sleep soundly somewhere deep inside his soul.
The night before that, Mr.D told Mr.E that he needed some cash, and here again Mr.E was reminded about that case. Mr.D was heading to the nearest petrol station as the fuel was soon to be running out. There was an ATM machine at the petrol station.
Mr.D: Eh, I need some cash for my work, my sister hasn't transferred the money to my bank just yet, so I need to borrow from you first, once my sister is done with the money transferring, I would return the money to you.
Mr.E: How much you need?
Mr.D: Err, quite a big number le, but I need 500 because I don't know how much the fees are.
Mr.E: Huh?So much meh??
Mr.D: Nevermind then!
When Mr.E said "Huh?So much meh?", his face just turned unfavourably, with all the wrinkles popping up, and the eyes just stared at Mr.D with full of doubts like Mr.D was going to cheat away all his money, and the tone was just so self-protective as if he were being attacked by a group of animals that went berserk as the hunger had overtaken their sanity. The words, so unpleasant and harsh, reaching the ears of Mr.D and soon Mr.D's face turned black in a minute, saying "Nevermind then!" with the anger tone as if the whole world had turned its back on him.
Mr.D wasn't very happy, he got to transfer money from his mama account to his own, which was very troublesome for him. Supposed to have breakfast outside, instead, Mr.E proposed to have "take away" and eat in his house. After all, Mr.D needed to go to Mr.E's house to do the e-banking transfer. To show that Mr.D was not happy, Mr.D turned Mr.E down when he was asked what kinda food he wanted, "No, I ain't gon eat, I still got a lot of stuff to do, sorry". Well, Mr.D saw Mr.E coming back with two packets, ain't sure if Mr.E did order one extra for him. It was none of Mr.D's concern, though.
After getting all the things done, Mr.D decided to leave, "I done all transferring already, and I gotta go now, a lot of stuff to follow up", with a face that would just turn everyone off, it was so obvious as the expression and tonality had told the story.
Mr.E: Can you please stop acting like that?
Mr.D: Act like what?You have no idea how disappointed I am!
Mr.D left with no hesitation, Mr.E could do nothing but to open the door for Mr.D to leave. Perhaps, he could have done something more. When Mr.D got in the car, he sent a text to Mr.E stating that it was meaningless to continue as there was no trust at all even though they had been together for 8 months. Of course, Mr.E was still trying to protect himself, his never-admit-wrong-attitudes had again shown up, pushing all the blames towards Mr.D.
The text written and sent by Mr.E:
"Cuz never on the right timing, plus you din further elaborate much on that. And I just woke up, blur blur."
Mr.D replied:
"If you really trust me, you don't even need to ask me. Plus, doesn't all that I told you tell you the story already, what more do I need to elaborate?And you said you were blur, would you have listened even if I would take the time to tell you the whole story? The ATM machine is just right in front of you, and I already assured you the returns, yet you rather wanted me to do this and that to get the money transferred, I'm really disappointed."
Mr.E kept on defending himself, and Mr.D really gave up, ignoring all the texts sent by Mr.E because he had been very tired, trying his best, giving every single effort to save the relationship, but he failed in the end. The break-up was a peaceful one as they agreed to be friends. But was it really the true intention of both parties to be just friends?And were they really willing to let go of each other, given that they still loved each other?
Mr.D once promised himself that he would never ever shed a single tear for Mr.E no more. Yes, he did carry out the promise, he cried no tears on the way home, not even a single tear!He remained calm, as he seemed to be. He got down from the car, with no emotions, just like a zombie, but with consciousness, he unlocked the door, then walking towards his room. As usual, he switched on his laptop, open the windows media player, searching for a song named " I will always love you" by Whitney Houston. This was when Mr.D collapsed, he couldn't stand it any longer, he'd rather break the promise he once made to himself, than to endure the pain that burned inside his heart. At this point, the only person that he could think of was Mr.R, he called Mr.R up, with the crying voice that only children could have mastered the skill. He wasn't a child after all, yet he cried like one, telling Mr.R that he broke up as Whitney Houston sang "And I will always love you, will always love you...". Mr.R kept on asking what had happened, but Mr.D just repeated " No, nothing happened la, I'm okay". It wasn't convincing enough to persuade Mr.R that Mr.D was alright, in contrary, Mr.R was worried as he knew Mr.D was just pretending to be alright, and was suffering an emotional breakdown deep inside his heart.
It was all about trust, and a relationship that trust did not live in, wasn't worth someone to keep. Mr.D knew he had to do that, even though everyone might think that his love has swung too much towards Mr.R, instead of sticking with Mr.E. When everyone might misunderstand him, he still chose to bear the consequences.
Mr.D waited for Mr.E to save the relationship, he wanted to make Mr.E realize what the real problems were in the relationships, no matter what, he couldn't volunteer or initiate the move to reconcile, or else Mr.E would never realize his mistakes and worse when the history was to be repeated. He waited and waited, Mr.E still did not want to make any move, was it because of his ego?Or he thought that both him and Mr.D should have a rest for a while? Or he was just too occupied with his job that he had gotten no time to deal with the problem for the time being?
What would be Mr.D's next move?Would he be firm enough to wait for Mr.E, even for a month or more? Or he would let down his pride and beg for a reconciliation? Or would he move to Mr.R for a new relationship? Or would he choose to be single for a while? There was not any room for prediction, Mr.D was right now standing at the crossroads, facing 4 paths that upheld different futures each, with no predictions made available of how each future would be like, and he gotta make a choice and embark on the new journey with no regrets.
Pen off,
Devil
The question was, why did it happen at all of a sudden, and how? Was it because of Mr.R that Mr.D decided to end the relationship with Mr.E? Or was there another story behind the scenes that was yet to be revealed?
It was 12am, 25th August 2008. Mr.D and Mr.E had some conversations on msn.
Mr.E: You want tea?
Mr.D: Ok, you drive?
Mr.E: How about make it tomorrow?
Mr.D: ..........
Mr.D: I'm dressed, then only you say
Mr.E: Lazy drive le
Mr.D: I can drive to your house there la
Mr.E: Then ok, not too long lo, because late already
Mr.E: How about go for breakfast tomorrow? =)
Mr.D: Up to you!
So, they both agreed to have a breakfast at 9am. Mr.D knew Mr.E was tired after working, although dealt to meet at 9am, he actually gave Mr.E extra 1 hour to sleep. Reaching there at 10am, he gave Mr.E a call
Mr.D: Hello, I reached already.
Mr.E: Ohh, ok. Gimme 5 minutes, I brush teeth and I'll come down, can?
Mr.D: Well, sure.
Mr.E came down with blur looks, like a somnambulist, who walked or did activities in his or her sleep, subconsciously, ain't knowing that he or she was doing it!Except for some distinguishable traits, his eyes weren't fully closed, he was at least 40% awake, knowing exactly that he was heading towards Mr.D's car, although the remainder might sleep soundly somewhere deep inside his soul.
The night before that, Mr.D told Mr.E that he needed some cash, and here again Mr.E was reminded about that case. Mr.D was heading to the nearest petrol station as the fuel was soon to be running out. There was an ATM machine at the petrol station.
Mr.D: Eh, I need some cash for my work, my sister hasn't transferred the money to my bank just yet, so I need to borrow from you first, once my sister is done with the money transferring, I would return the money to you.
Mr.E: How much you need?
Mr.D: Err, quite a big number le, but I need 500 because I don't know how much the fees are.
Mr.E: Huh?So much meh??
Mr.D: Nevermind then!
When Mr.E said "Huh?So much meh?", his face just turned unfavourably, with all the wrinkles popping up, and the eyes just stared at Mr.D with full of doubts like Mr.D was going to cheat away all his money, and the tone was just so self-protective as if he were being attacked by a group of animals that went berserk as the hunger had overtaken their sanity. The words, so unpleasant and harsh, reaching the ears of Mr.D and soon Mr.D's face turned black in a minute, saying "Nevermind then!" with the anger tone as if the whole world had turned its back on him.
Mr.D wasn't very happy, he got to transfer money from his mama account to his own, which was very troublesome for him. Supposed to have breakfast outside, instead, Mr.E proposed to have "take away" and eat in his house. After all, Mr.D needed to go to Mr.E's house to do the e-banking transfer. To show that Mr.D was not happy, Mr.D turned Mr.E down when he was asked what kinda food he wanted, "No, I ain't gon eat, I still got a lot of stuff to do, sorry". Well, Mr.D saw Mr.E coming back with two packets, ain't sure if Mr.E did order one extra for him. It was none of Mr.D's concern, though.
After getting all the things done, Mr.D decided to leave, "I done all transferring already, and I gotta go now, a lot of stuff to follow up", with a face that would just turn everyone off, it was so obvious as the expression and tonality had told the story.
Mr.E: Can you please stop acting like that?
Mr.D: Act like what?You have no idea how disappointed I am!
Mr.D left with no hesitation, Mr.E could do nothing but to open the door for Mr.D to leave. Perhaps, he could have done something more. When Mr.D got in the car, he sent a text to Mr.E stating that it was meaningless to continue as there was no trust at all even though they had been together for 8 months. Of course, Mr.E was still trying to protect himself, his never-admit-wrong-attitudes had again shown up, pushing all the blames towards Mr.D.
The text written and sent by Mr.E:
"Cuz never on the right timing, plus you din further elaborate much on that. And I just woke up, blur blur."
Mr.D replied:
"If you really trust me, you don't even need to ask me. Plus, doesn't all that I told you tell you the story already, what more do I need to elaborate?And you said you were blur, would you have listened even if I would take the time to tell you the whole story? The ATM machine is just right in front of you, and I already assured you the returns, yet you rather wanted me to do this and that to get the money transferred, I'm really disappointed."
Mr.E kept on defending himself, and Mr.D really gave up, ignoring all the texts sent by Mr.E because he had been very tired, trying his best, giving every single effort to save the relationship, but he failed in the end. The break-up was a peaceful one as they agreed to be friends. But was it really the true intention of both parties to be just friends?And were they really willing to let go of each other, given that they still loved each other?
Mr.D once promised himself that he would never ever shed a single tear for Mr.E no more. Yes, he did carry out the promise, he cried no tears on the way home, not even a single tear!He remained calm, as he seemed to be. He got down from the car, with no emotions, just like a zombie, but with consciousness, he unlocked the door, then walking towards his room. As usual, he switched on his laptop, open the windows media player, searching for a song named " I will always love you" by Whitney Houston. This was when Mr.D collapsed, he couldn't stand it any longer, he'd rather break the promise he once made to himself, than to endure the pain that burned inside his heart. At this point, the only person that he could think of was Mr.R, he called Mr.R up, with the crying voice that only children could have mastered the skill. He wasn't a child after all, yet he cried like one, telling Mr.R that he broke up as Whitney Houston sang "And I will always love you, will always love you...". Mr.R kept on asking what had happened, but Mr.D just repeated " No, nothing happened la, I'm okay". It wasn't convincing enough to persuade Mr.R that Mr.D was alright, in contrary, Mr.R was worried as he knew Mr.D was just pretending to be alright, and was suffering an emotional breakdown deep inside his heart.
It was all about trust, and a relationship that trust did not live in, wasn't worth someone to keep. Mr.D knew he had to do that, even though everyone might think that his love has swung too much towards Mr.R, instead of sticking with Mr.E. When everyone might misunderstand him, he still chose to bear the consequences.
Mr.D waited for Mr.E to save the relationship, he wanted to make Mr.E realize what the real problems were in the relationships, no matter what, he couldn't volunteer or initiate the move to reconcile, or else Mr.E would never realize his mistakes and worse when the history was to be repeated. He waited and waited, Mr.E still did not want to make any move, was it because of his ego?Or he thought that both him and Mr.D should have a rest for a while? Or he was just too occupied with his job that he had gotten no time to deal with the problem for the time being?
What would be Mr.D's next move?Would he be firm enough to wait for Mr.E, even for a month or more? Or he would let down his pride and beg for a reconciliation? Or would he move to Mr.R for a new relationship? Or would he choose to be single for a while? There was not any room for prediction, Mr.D was right now standing at the crossroads, facing 4 paths that upheld different futures each, with no predictions made available of how each future would be like, and he gotta make a choice and embark on the new journey with no regrets.
Pen off,
Devil
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Chapter 5 - Switched Direction
Mr.D used to have a philosophy, especially after the final examination, "It's time to hibernate to regain the times that I had lost for sleeping". Hibernation was usually being carried out in holidays, especially when Mr.D had nothing to do, no appointments, no works, just nothing . And well, the hibernation that Mr.D meant was not literal, he was just saying that he needed a long rest, and normally he could sleep until 5pm in the evening or an hour or two later. On 26th August 2008, Mr.D woke up around 3pm, not naturally, not by his own, nor by the alarm, but awakened by a 9-seconds long of message ring-tone piercing through both his ears. It was from Mr.R: "You wanna come over tonight?He won't be at home" Instead of replying the text, Mr.D just went online and searched for Mr.R.
Mr.D: You're really here!
Mr.R: Hmm, I thought you are still having your lil' sweet dream?Haha..
Mr.D: Nah, your text woke me up...Anyway, Let's video call, I wanna see you!
Mr.R: Ok, I wanna see you too..
Mr.D's eyes were then fully opened, with his little hand rubbing against the eyes.
First thing that Mr.D asked was about Mr.B, using 4W's concept, Why would he not be at home?and Where would he be?What would he be doing?When would he be home?Answers in sequence, Family affairs; Hometown - Kulai; Helping parents - incomplete information; tomorrow night. Well, now that Mr.D had gotten all the information that he needed to clear his doubts in his mind, but he was naughty enough to be thinking of having a test on Mr.R. He suddenly popped up a question during the conversation.
Mr.D: I don't wanna go over there, but I want you come over here tonight!Would you?
Mr.R: I wanted to go over, but.. Mr.D: But what? Mr.R: Well, you know that, don't you?
Mr.D: Hmm, Bxxxx again, isn't it? But he won't be at home also.
Mr.R: He be checking on me?
Mr.D: How?
Mr.R: 3g or video call lo
Mr.D: Don't care la!
Mr.R: I'd just fly over to you if I could care not..
The conversation continued for another couple of hours, and Mr.D had been trying to persuade Mr.R to come over, but his mission was yet to be a complete one as Mr.R had not changed his mind at all. At this point, his patience had reached its limit, and the gauge was so full that it could not take it any more, any longer. He finally lost it, he was tired of persuading Mr.R, he decided to give up. But, he still wanted to give his final try, by doing a demonstration.
Mr.R: I wanted to go over there, but I'm somehow scared, he's still my boyfriend.
Mr.D: So?
Mr.R: That's why, if not I wouldn't care so much la.Please bear with me a little.
Mr.D: There's no use, we are wasting our time. If he is your boyfriend, what for you come find me?If you really care to care about him, why come find me?This is such an act that would hurt him. Why do you care now then when you din even care to care in the first place?
Mr.R: True enough ...
Mr.D: I been asking since this afternoon, what did I get?He just asked, you would immediately do it, but me?nothing?
Mr.D: I have wasted my two hours asking you, persuading you, but all you ever told me is BXXXX", from the start till the end of this conversation and I have yet to eat anything, I have got nothing in my stomach!and now it's too late to go pasar malam and I won't go anymore!
Mr.R: Sxx Wxx, I cannot ask for your forgiveness, because I know I'm at wrong.
Mr.D: Don't say this anymore, when you don't have the intention to change at all
Mr.R: ...
Mr.D: I'd be disappointed if you really not coming today and that's it, I won't say no more after that, I have wasted 3 hours just now, and I don't hope continue wasting the rest of my life. And I guess you just wont change your mind then, so there's no reason to continue wasting my time.
Mr.R: You can pick me up later? Mr.D: You can come meh?You not scared meh?
Mr.R: I'm scared, I'm very scared....
Mr.D: Then stay at home la =)
Mr.R: But I've decided to throw it away, hence I'm coming. Mr.D: So you think I will say yes?Just because you changed your mind now?Did I tell you that I used to tell him "too late"?
Mr.R: I'm at no position to tell you to do anything.
Mr.D: Aren't you scared of being too late?
Mr.R: I'm scared, because I know it's getting too late.
Mr.D: Please bring along Vodka Mango, if not, you gotta turn back, even if you reached sri petaling station.
Mr.R: Okay, but I need some time to tidy up my room and shower.
Mr.D: It's okay, I can wait.
Mr.R changed his mind, throwing off what he had been concerning in the first place. Whatever the reasons might be, it ain’t important any longer to anyone, at least not to Mr.R, nor to Mr.D. Indeed, Mr.D ain’t someone who just acted in his own ways or someone who was self-willed, always wanting people to follow what he thought was the appropriate ways to act, and there was actually a very meaningful purpose behind his demonstration, the so-called “fasting” which he just delivered the message with six words, “Not-Gonna-Eat-Anything-At-All”, all he wanted was just to change Mr.R into a better man, a man who was decisive enough to know what he wanted for his life, and not someone who just stood aside and hid himself from being seen and letting the nasty words of bastards swayed his decisions. Mr.R just couldn’t stand firm on his thoughts, he always got himself influenced, even the nasty words ain’t convincing at all. Well, Mr.D was happy, r, not just because he could see Mr.R again and also that Mr.R had taken the first step in giving recognition and an official status to the relationship of theirs.
Before the clock stopped sharply at 10pm, probably 5 minutes more to 10pm or 10 minutes, and as Mr.D drove close to the LRT station, he saw Mr.R, sitting on a bench with an impatient look that just showed how much Mr.R wished to see Mr.D. Mr.R got off of the bench immediately once he saw a black WIRA with the number plate of BHG 8385 came closing in. As soon as Mr.R got into the car, Mr.D sped up towards the direction of the night market nearby. He was very hungry indeed, and it would be his “3 in 1” in a day, in which only a meal was served in just normal proportion but satisfied the hunger of Mr.D, replacing the breakfast, lunch and dinner. It just took them about 10 minutes to reach the night market, and Mr.D quickly parked the car and then headed towards the night market. There were a lot of people in the night market, so were the food stalls, Mr.D just couldn’t decide what kind of food he should eat. Mr.R knew Mr.D was hungry, and he also knew that Mr.D was having a difficult time to decide what to eat; he then quickly glanced through the stalls around, and found this little “Taiwainese Fried Chicken Chop”. He got his wallet out and just bought one packet of the fried chicken chop. Mr.R had the packet on his right palm all the time, with his left hand picking up the toothpick in which the pieces of the fried chicken chop were pierced through. Instead of having the food put right into Mr.R’s mouth, that little toothpick went towards the direction of Mr.D, Mr.R was planning to feed Mr.D, in the public! Well, Mr.D just opened the mouth, ignoring what the other pedestrians would ever think or react, as if it was just two of them in the whole night market, as if… Anyhow, it just ain’t important any longer, all Mr.D ever knew was that he was in love with Mr.R, very deeply. After a few rounds of strolling in the night market, they just got themselves some food, in “take-away” styles, and went home to enjoy.
After the meals, Mr.D just took a towel and went towards the bathroom, he felt hot and he just couldn’t stand the heat. 10 minutes later, Mr.R saw Mr.D coming out from the bathroom, with only towel surrounding his waist, covering all parts that he thought he should. Mr.R just couldn’t get his eyes off of Mr.D’s half-naked body, and Mr.D used to leave himself shirtless at home, especially after a shower or that when it was almost time for him to get up on the bed. Using the laptop as much as possible was a must-do culture that Mr.D adopted, be it to surf net, to listen to music or whatever reasons it might be. That night, ain’t an ordinary night but a romantic one for both Mr.R and Mr.D. It just started with a hug, a tight one, while Mr.D was lying on the bed; Mr.R cuddled from behind, a tight one like he ain’t going to let Mr.D go for the rest of the life. The rest just went on like how a sexual scene could be placed on the screen of a love story or romance movie, Mr.R was smart this time, hitting the right spot that would make Mr.D feel excited, NECK. Mr.D soon got high and he just closed his eyes and the moaning sounds just went out right of his mouth. Mr.R got greedy, from the neck to the hairy belly of Mr.D and soon he stripped off the only thing that Mr.D had on his body, the little grey boxer. Mr.D was fully naked now, the flame and the desire of Mr.R just got wilder, he started to move his hands over, holding the “tool” and rubbing against it while he was giving a kissy kiss to Mr.D’s neck and soon the “tool” got harder from the erection as Mr.D could no longer resist the temptation. Mr.D’s eyes were still closed, but the sounds just got louder and louder, and nobody could ever hear it, as the music was all being trapped in the room of Mr.D and the walls became the soundproof system that prevented the moaning sounds to go outside of the room, being overlapped by the R&B music they played in the room. When the time was right, Mr.R opened his mouth and put the erected tool into his mouth. Mr.D then lifted his head a little and opened his eyes a little, seeing Mr.R’s head moving up and down repeatedly, instead of pushing Mr.R away, Mr.D just laid down and closed his eyes again to continue enjoying the moments where the saliva of Mr.R got all over his tool. To elevate the orgasm to the maximum level, and as well to taste the feelings of conquering which was described as male-egoism, Mr.D lifted his hands and put on top of Mr.R’s head, controlling its every movement, pressed lightly down for the tool to reach the throats, as deep as possible and then made the hand at ease, Mr.R’s head would just automatically move up a bit, as if he needed some air to breathe before he was suffocated to death and after that Mr.D pressed the head down lightly over and over again.
Mr.D: Ahh, it’s coming, I’m gonna cum soon.
Mr.R was supposed to stop for a while and continued with hands instead of mouth as Mr.D had already given him the signal that his tool was going to spit soon enough. Mr.R just ignored the message the Mr.D was trying to deliver, he continued using his mouth to get the job done. In not more than 30 seconds, Mr.D couldn’t handle anymore, his tool finally spitted and the “juicy protein” was all splashed into the mouth of Mr.R. The tool had had a few shots of the protein and Mr.R swallowed every single drop of protein juice, not leaving any of those shots wasted.
Mr.D: Why did you swallow it?I mean it’s gross, isn’t it?And it got some kinda smell, an unbearable one!
Mr.R: No ah, it tasted good, a little sweet!And I like it!
Mr.D: Well, you leave me speechless now, haha.
Mr.D couldn’t stand the smell of the protein juice, and before Mr.R wanted to give a passionate kiss to Mr.D, he was stopped.
Mr.D: Yew, you’d better go drink a glass of water before you gon kiss me!Haha..
Mr.R went out of the room immediately, of course with shirts and pants worn, to have a glass of plain water. He went in after that, and gave Mr.D’s lips a passionate and wet kiss. Mr.D was tired, he lied in the arms of Mr.R, shirtless, and moving the blanket to cover himself and Mr.R as they started to feel cold in the air-cond room. After a while, Mr.D fell asleep, with Mr.R cuddling from behind and the night had called its day and was starting to sleep as well.
Pen off,
Devil
Mr.D: You're really here!
Mr.R: Hmm, I thought you are still having your lil' sweet dream?Haha..
Mr.D: Nah, your text woke me up...Anyway, Let's video call, I wanna see you!
Mr.R: Ok, I wanna see you too..
Mr.D's eyes were then fully opened, with his little hand rubbing against the eyes.
First thing that Mr.D asked was about Mr.B, using 4W's concept, Why would he not be at home?and Where would he be?What would he be doing?When would he be home?Answers in sequence, Family affairs; Hometown - Kulai; Helping parents - incomplete information; tomorrow night. Well, now that Mr.D had gotten all the information that he needed to clear his doubts in his mind, but he was naughty enough to be thinking of having a test on Mr.R. He suddenly popped up a question during the conversation.
Mr.D: I don't wanna go over there, but I want you come over here tonight!Would you?
Mr.R: I wanted to go over, but.. Mr.D: But what? Mr.R: Well, you know that, don't you?
Mr.D: Hmm, Bxxxx again, isn't it? But he won't be at home also.
Mr.R: He be checking on me?
Mr.D: How?
Mr.R: 3g or video call lo
Mr.D: Don't care la!
Mr.R: I'd just fly over to you if I could care not..
The conversation continued for another couple of hours, and Mr.D had been trying to persuade Mr.R to come over, but his mission was yet to be a complete one as Mr.R had not changed his mind at all. At this point, his patience had reached its limit, and the gauge was so full that it could not take it any more, any longer. He finally lost it, he was tired of persuading Mr.R, he decided to give up. But, he still wanted to give his final try, by doing a demonstration.
Mr.R: I wanted to go over there, but I'm somehow scared, he's still my boyfriend.
Mr.D: So?
Mr.R: That's why, if not I wouldn't care so much la.Please bear with me a little.
Mr.D: There's no use, we are wasting our time. If he is your boyfriend, what for you come find me?If you really care to care about him, why come find me?This is such an act that would hurt him. Why do you care now then when you din even care to care in the first place?
Mr.R: True enough ...
Mr.D: I been asking since this afternoon, what did I get?He just asked, you would immediately do it, but me?nothing?
Mr.D: I have wasted my two hours asking you, persuading you, but all you ever told me is BXXXX", from the start till the end of this conversation and I have yet to eat anything, I have got nothing in my stomach!and now it's too late to go pasar malam and I won't go anymore!
Mr.R: Sxx Wxx, I cannot ask for your forgiveness, because I know I'm at wrong.
Mr.D: Don't say this anymore, when you don't have the intention to change at all
Mr.R: ...
Mr.D: I'd be disappointed if you really not coming today and that's it, I won't say no more after that, I have wasted 3 hours just now, and I don't hope continue wasting the rest of my life. And I guess you just wont change your mind then, so there's no reason to continue wasting my time.
Mr.R: You can pick me up later? Mr.D: You can come meh?You not scared meh?
Mr.R: I'm scared, I'm very scared....
Mr.D: Then stay at home la =)
Mr.R: But I've decided to throw it away, hence I'm coming. Mr.D: So you think I will say yes?Just because you changed your mind now?Did I tell you that I used to tell him "too late"?
Mr.R: I'm at no position to tell you to do anything.
Mr.D: Aren't you scared of being too late?
Mr.R: I'm scared, because I know it's getting too late.
Mr.D: Please bring along Vodka Mango, if not, you gotta turn back, even if you reached sri petaling station.
Mr.R: Okay, but I need some time to tidy up my room and shower.
Mr.D: It's okay, I can wait.
Mr.R changed his mind, throwing off what he had been concerning in the first place. Whatever the reasons might be, it ain’t important any longer to anyone, at least not to Mr.R, nor to Mr.D. Indeed, Mr.D ain’t someone who just acted in his own ways or someone who was self-willed, always wanting people to follow what he thought was the appropriate ways to act, and there was actually a very meaningful purpose behind his demonstration, the so-called “fasting” which he just delivered the message with six words, “Not-Gonna-Eat-Anything-At-All”, all he wanted was just to change Mr.R into a better man, a man who was decisive enough to know what he wanted for his life, and not someone who just stood aside and hid himself from being seen and letting the nasty words of bastards swayed his decisions. Mr.R just couldn’t stand firm on his thoughts, he always got himself influenced, even the nasty words ain’t convincing at all. Well, Mr.D was happy, r, not just because he could see Mr.R again and also that Mr.R had taken the first step in giving recognition and an official status to the relationship of theirs.
Before the clock stopped sharply at 10pm, probably 5 minutes more to 10pm or 10 minutes, and as Mr.D drove close to the LRT station, he saw Mr.R, sitting on a bench with an impatient look that just showed how much Mr.R wished to see Mr.D. Mr.R got off of the bench immediately once he saw a black WIRA with the number plate of BHG 8385 came closing in. As soon as Mr.R got into the car, Mr.D sped up towards the direction of the night market nearby. He was very hungry indeed, and it would be his “3 in 1” in a day, in which only a meal was served in just normal proportion but satisfied the hunger of Mr.D, replacing the breakfast, lunch and dinner. It just took them about 10 minutes to reach the night market, and Mr.D quickly parked the car and then headed towards the night market. There were a lot of people in the night market, so were the food stalls, Mr.D just couldn’t decide what kind of food he should eat. Mr.R knew Mr.D was hungry, and he also knew that Mr.D was having a difficult time to decide what to eat; he then quickly glanced through the stalls around, and found this little “Taiwainese Fried Chicken Chop”. He got his wallet out and just bought one packet of the fried chicken chop. Mr.R had the packet on his right palm all the time, with his left hand picking up the toothpick in which the pieces of the fried chicken chop were pierced through. Instead of having the food put right into Mr.R’s mouth, that little toothpick went towards the direction of Mr.D, Mr.R was planning to feed Mr.D, in the public! Well, Mr.D just opened the mouth, ignoring what the other pedestrians would ever think or react, as if it was just two of them in the whole night market, as if… Anyhow, it just ain’t important any longer, all Mr.D ever knew was that he was in love with Mr.R, very deeply. After a few rounds of strolling in the night market, they just got themselves some food, in “take-away” styles, and went home to enjoy.
After the meals, Mr.D just took a towel and went towards the bathroom, he felt hot and he just couldn’t stand the heat. 10 minutes later, Mr.R saw Mr.D coming out from the bathroom, with only towel surrounding his waist, covering all parts that he thought he should. Mr.R just couldn’t get his eyes off of Mr.D’s half-naked body, and Mr.D used to leave himself shirtless at home, especially after a shower or that when it was almost time for him to get up on the bed. Using the laptop as much as possible was a must-do culture that Mr.D adopted, be it to surf net, to listen to music or whatever reasons it might be. That night, ain’t an ordinary night but a romantic one for both Mr.R and Mr.D. It just started with a hug, a tight one, while Mr.D was lying on the bed; Mr.R cuddled from behind, a tight one like he ain’t going to let Mr.D go for the rest of the life. The rest just went on like how a sexual scene could be placed on the screen of a love story or romance movie, Mr.R was smart this time, hitting the right spot that would make Mr.D feel excited, NECK. Mr.D soon got high and he just closed his eyes and the moaning sounds just went out right of his mouth. Mr.R got greedy, from the neck to the hairy belly of Mr.D and soon he stripped off the only thing that Mr.D had on his body, the little grey boxer. Mr.D was fully naked now, the flame and the desire of Mr.R just got wilder, he started to move his hands over, holding the “tool” and rubbing against it while he was giving a kissy kiss to Mr.D’s neck and soon the “tool” got harder from the erection as Mr.D could no longer resist the temptation. Mr.D’s eyes were still closed, but the sounds just got louder and louder, and nobody could ever hear it, as the music was all being trapped in the room of Mr.D and the walls became the soundproof system that prevented the moaning sounds to go outside of the room, being overlapped by the R&B music they played in the room. When the time was right, Mr.R opened his mouth and put the erected tool into his mouth. Mr.D then lifted his head a little and opened his eyes a little, seeing Mr.R’s head moving up and down repeatedly, instead of pushing Mr.R away, Mr.D just laid down and closed his eyes again to continue enjoying the moments where the saliva of Mr.R got all over his tool. To elevate the orgasm to the maximum level, and as well to taste the feelings of conquering which was described as male-egoism, Mr.D lifted his hands and put on top of Mr.R’s head, controlling its every movement, pressed lightly down for the tool to reach the throats, as deep as possible and then made the hand at ease, Mr.R’s head would just automatically move up a bit, as if he needed some air to breathe before he was suffocated to death and after that Mr.D pressed the head down lightly over and over again.
Mr.D: Ahh, it’s coming, I’m gonna cum soon.
Mr.R was supposed to stop for a while and continued with hands instead of mouth as Mr.D had already given him the signal that his tool was going to spit soon enough. Mr.R just ignored the message the Mr.D was trying to deliver, he continued using his mouth to get the job done. In not more than 30 seconds, Mr.D couldn’t handle anymore, his tool finally spitted and the “juicy protein” was all splashed into the mouth of Mr.R. The tool had had a few shots of the protein and Mr.R swallowed every single drop of protein juice, not leaving any of those shots wasted.
Mr.D: Why did you swallow it?I mean it’s gross, isn’t it?And it got some kinda smell, an unbearable one!
Mr.R: No ah, it tasted good, a little sweet!And I like it!
Mr.D: Well, you leave me speechless now, haha.
Mr.D couldn’t stand the smell of the protein juice, and before Mr.R wanted to give a passionate kiss to Mr.D, he was stopped.
Mr.D: Yew, you’d better go drink a glass of water before you gon kiss me!Haha..
Mr.R went out of the room immediately, of course with shirts and pants worn, to have a glass of plain water. He went in after that, and gave Mr.D’s lips a passionate and wet kiss. Mr.D was tired, he lied in the arms of Mr.R, shirtless, and moving the blanket to cover himself and Mr.R as they started to feel cold in the air-cond room. After a while, Mr.D fell asleep, with Mr.R cuddling from behind and the night had called its day and was starting to sleep as well.
Pen off,
Devil
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